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Let me start by saying that this post may be a long one!  I just feel like I have so much to say and it is all spilling over.  I haven't much spare time to blog, but I always have things I want to say (imagine that!;) so I guess I will get out all that I can so I can start filling back up for next time...... What an amazing last couple of weeks it has been!  If this process does nothing else (other than give you cramps in your hand from filling out paperwork ;) it certainly awakens emotions in you that you may have only rarely seen or even never seen before at all.  The most prominent emotion for me to this point has been the overwhelming sense of helplessness - not something I do well with.  I am a leader and I like to be in control so when I lose that control it can be difficult for me to sit back and let other call the shots.  I have begun to realize in recent years though, that when I actually think I am "in control" I am only really kidding myself....

This has been an incredibly busy couple of weeks.  We are getting so much done to move toward the adoption of our little girl, though!  We have completed more stacks of paperwork (I estimate that I have filled out and mailed in about 100 documents already!), made more copies of official documents, sent in more fees and have been meeting with our social worker to complete our home study process....whew! We were introduced to our social worker this past week who will conduct the 4 in home interviews with us and the boys so that she can write up her report and recommend us for adoption.  She is a nice girl - easy to talk to and friendly.  It helps that she is warm with all the personal and sometimes painful questions she asks. Makes it easier to speak with her candidly.  We meet with her tomorrow morning for our third meeting and her first one on one time with the boys.  I am really excited for her to get to know them and see what great kids they are! I spoke ...