bodner004

Well, another holiday has come and gone and still our little Lily is not home.  We don't even know who "Lily" is.....only that she is our daughter in China that we WILL bring home eventually.  Some days it doesn't seem real - it just feels like this is a dream or something we pray for, but it is the impossible that we will never really live to see happen. Then often times she feels so real that I can see her so vividly when I close my eyes. I have dreams of her in our family and wake up feeling like if I walk into her room I will see her peacefully sleeping in her bed. But, of course, that is not the case. Her bed still sits empty - Made up and ready for her to come home. My heart just cries out for her every day. More and more as the days go by as I beg and plead with God with my face to the floor to bring her home.  It is exhausting...emotionally, mentally and physically. While I know that God has a plan I just can't seem to stop my human tendencies of anxiousne...